Hey there, my beautiful strangers! It's almost been 2 weeks since I started this blog & I gotta say... It's been quite a ride!
I went into this with little to no expectations. My only intention was to help myself.
At this point in my existence I've experienced things I never imagined I would. ESPECIALLY as a twenty-something (I'll kill your curiosity-- I'm 21 haha). Up until this point, I tried EVERYTHING to really "cure" the situation. For a little bit, it would help me to play the piano, or reorganize my room, or go for a long drive. But there are only so many things I could play on the piano, so many ways I can move furniture, and so many places I could go before it wasn't distracting enough.
Writing was always something I felt more comfortable doing. Ask me why I feel sad & I'll have the hardest time answering. Tell me to write about how I feel & I'll give you a novel. And so this blog was born! But my purpose in sharing my experiences wasn't just for the hell of it. I felt that I could really help myself by NOT keeping everything in my mind, because in the end that was going to be my demise. I realized it wasn't enough for me to just put my business out in the world & that'd be it. If I could benefit from my own experiences then I would want other people to benefit too.
Almost 2 weeks later, the response to this blog has completely sky-rocketed! I make it a point not to check on the numbers because it doesn't really matter to me. But I took a peak for the first time & I'm so happy to share that about 200 of you amazing strangers have read this blog with about 950 page views (900 are probably from me lol). And I'm pleased to say that so many of you reached out to me through email to share your experiences, ask for advice, and to just tell me that what I'm doing is a really brave thing.
So with that, I feel it would only be appropriate to encourage you to do the same thing I did. Acknowledgement is the first step to recovery in anything-- heartbreak, grief, anxiety, depression, you name it. It's important to find common ground WITH yourself to really know how you can HELP yourself. Take action. Be proactive. Love the "you" that you are because who you are is perfect in all its entirety. Yeah, yeah. Cliche. I acknowledge the things about me that are, lack of a better term, "messed up." And yes, sometimes I do fall off the trail. But I learned that when you fall, someone will help you back up.
You can't please everyone. You can't fear change. You can't keep revisiting the past. And you can't put yourself down.
You're not alone. You have me. Just like I have all of you. Keep your head up, stranger. You're stronger than you think you are. Do you know why? You're a survivor. And so am I. This blog has saved my life in more ways than one. I know it will do the same for you.
"So, do it. Decide. Is this the life you want to live? Is this the person you want to love? Is this the best you can be? Can you be stronger? Kinder? More compassionate? Decide. Breathe in. Breathe out and decide." - Meredith Grey