Meet Aeryn & Andrew.
I decided to start a new series titled, "V.I.P." also known as, "Very Influential People." The title speaks for itself. We all come across influential people in our lives, and all at different times. People stumble in our direction to teach us lessons. Sometimes, they help us realize things we otherwise wouldn't have on our own. And it seems like just as you were about to give up completely, people show up miraculously at just the right time to be everything you needed and more.
Before Aeryn & Andrew showed up, I was in a tough spot. I felt like I was at my lowest point. And because things started getting so bad, I started getting out of control. I couldn't balance my own emotions, I couldn't stay focused, I was getting anxiety over every little thing, and I started to do whatever it took to keep me distracted. Even to the point where I felt like my own existence was enough to cause me & everyone around me so much trouble.
When they moved to town, it didn't seem like anything out of the ordinary. But there was something about them that grabbed my attention. It was like energy was beaming off of them and matched mine because I couldn't seem to steer away from them. Everything about them was infectious-- their laughter, their smiles, and even their amazing voices. It was like hearing angels sing! Something in me felt like they were what I needed. As if I subconsciously knew that they were going to change the game for me.
Though their time here was short, the past months have been filled by so many great talks, delicious coffee, tons of back aching and tummy wrenching laughter, and late night singing. They made me feel something again. I may not have gotten back to 100%, but they picked me up. They've done everything from drive me around just so I can talk, text me to make sure I'm doing fine, let me cry in their car, and most importantly, made me feel like my life mattered. They're my soccer moms. Having them in my life I learned that things don’t always turn out the way you planned, or the way you think they should. There are things that go wrong that won’t always get fixed or get put back together the way they were before. I’ve learned that some broken things stay broken, and that you can’t get through bad times unless you have people who love you right by your side. I've learned that passion is important. That if something makes you genuinely happy, then you should definitely go for it. There is a world out there completely undiscovered. Don't we want to see it? Don't we want to leave our mark on the world, no matter how small?
I can't say that they brought me back from where I was. I can't say that I'm the old me again. And I can't guarantee that I won't fall back into my ways of thinking, because that journey to getting back is very long. But I can say that they were a huge part in me feeling alive again. It's easy to feel uncared for, especially when people can't connect with you & be there for you in the way that you need. And as a result, it's hard not to internalize every single thing you feel. To you, this becomes a reflection of your self-worth. So how are we going to get through it?
All we need is that support system. That beacon of hope. That assurance that things will fall into place when you least expect it. All we need is to have that one person or certain people to love us unconditionally & genuinely care for our well-being. Someone who truly & sincerely believes in what you have to offer yourself as well as the rest of the world. People who will do everything in their power to make you remember why your existence matters. All you need to find is your Aeryn & Andrew. I'll never know what I did to deserve such amazing people!!