Trust me when I say, I know... I know you're tired. I know what that's like to feel tired in all sense of the word-- physical, emotional, mental. This place we live in does it to us. And you're tired of giving too much love and care to a world that doesn't give it back. I get it. You think no one notices, but I do.
I also know that it hasn't always been that way. There was once a spark in your eye. A spring in you step. There was a time when you were hopeful and optimistic. There was a time when you were passionate and driven. There was a time when you were strong and courageous. Now you feel like you've been dropped and abused and chipped away at. Like a worn down machine giving up piece by piece. I know the world hasn't always been kind to you. You've played this game so many times and have lost more than you have ever won. You're feeling uninspired to try again. You're thinking that in a world of possibilities nothing will ever work out. I know.
But you know what? You've fought so damn hard and I am proud of you. You made it this far so what's a few more steps? I know it's hard to see the light at the end of the tunnel. But I believe it's there. Nothing lasts forever, which means that whatever it is you're going through right now, it'll end one day.
We're all tired. EVERY... SINGLE... ONE OF US. At this point, we've lived long enough to say we're just a bunch of broken hearts, unkept promises, failed attempts, and something that wasn't worth a second chance. You're exhausted straight through your soul. You're just sick of where you are and want so badly to end it all. But you're not alone in this exhaustion. I know how impossible it feels to keep going and keep trying at something that seemingly will never get better. Your cheerfulness has turned to hopelessness. It's common, maybe even normal, to feel helpless. At some point you stop and say, "I tried, I really tried. I did my best."
But I urge you, if you're close to giving up, give it one more try. And this time, with feeling. I know you're tired of trying and you're at your wit's end. But that second wind of passion is just what you need.
We're stronger than we give ourselves credit for. There will always be more love to give, more hope to have, and more passion to flood out to the world. But sometimes we're so quick to give up that we don't walk far enough to let it show. None of us are inspired every day. We grow discouraged all the time. Just because you're worn out and sick of the life you're living, doesn't mean you're not making some sort of change. Every person you look up to has had times where they felt defeated. But did they let that stop them? You're allowed to fall AS LONG AS you get right back up.
I don't know what your situation is. But I do know that everyone deserves a second chance and you will get yours. Your world may seem like it's crashing down, but this is the exact time that you need to be your strongest. You never know how strong you really are until it's the only choice you have. But the only way to do that is to change your attitude, change your approach. Everything that happens in your life comes with a lesson. But I can't teach it to you. I can't make you accept it. YOU need to take this situation as it is. Make the most of it. Open your eyes, learn the lesson. What you get out of it will become your greatest weapon. Because when the next problem hits, you'll know what to do.
There's so much for you to accomplish. So much you can do. Right now you've only scratched the surface. Things have yet to unfold. There are places for you to see, new experiences for you to keep, foods you have to eat, people you need to meet... But you won't get to experience that if you shut your eyes forever.
I've been where you are. I'm still there right now. To feel like the world and everyone in it has turned against you. To feel like this is the end of the road. To feel like the only way out of this place you're stuck in, is to end it all right now. But if I can't do that to myself, YOU can't do that to yourself. I'm rooting for you. I want you to feel like the old you again. I want you to have that spark in your eye and that spring in your step. Be hopeful again. There's a world to gain & not to be lost. But only if you welcome it in. You'll get through this. Whatever it is that's making you feel so down, no matter how big or small, you'll get through it. I will too.